True Friendship

In my younger days, friends never really meant a lot to me. I had plenty of them, but it didn't matter. I've had best friends and good friends, special friends and just friends. I used to say that if you needed friends, it meant you didn't really enjoy being with yourself so much. To a degree, that's true. But that does pertain to the "needing" part. I supposed "wanting" friends is a bit different. It's a great thing when you have true friends and I have had those in my life. It is certainly a great blessing.

Over the years though, I've stuck to my guns about liking being with yourself and I always have. I guess I do like me. I never mind being alone. Sometimes, I get lonely, but it never lasts and for the most part I am a loner, I guess I always have been. I like people, and I like forming relationships, but when it comes down to it, you have to like yourself.

I knew someone once that just couldn't stand to be alone. He had to be around people all of the time. If he wasn't he would watch TV shows that would make him feel like he was a part if something. He never did manage to like himself. He wound up freaking out and screwing up his entire life. He lost everything that ever should have meant something to him. But because he never learned to like himself, he never learned how important people were and he managed to become so selfish that he destroyed lives including his own.